Starting Over…

Fresh starts can be good.

But not today. Not for me. Today it’s…The Worst.

Last year, I was in a great place with my workouts. They were scheduled. I was consistent. I was progressing. I was feeling and seeing the gains. Strong. Amazing.

So proud of how far I had come.

And then? Well….life. I got busy. Which is a great thing. But my workouts changed. I wasn’t scheduling them. There were no physical gains. I was beating myself up mentally every day I didn’t choose to work out.

I got stuck in the dreaded shame cycle. 

Pause. Time Out. Reset.

Today, I am choosing to get unstuck. To face the shame in the lack of strength in my body. To start at level 0. Again. 

If I’m being real…it sucks. But I think I have to be real. I have to face this feeling to stop myself from the cycle. It’s freeing. And annoying.  And you know what? I. Can. Do. It.

They say comparison is the thief of joy. I’m comparing myself today, at level 0, with myself last year, at level 10. Sucks. Let the negative self-talk begin. 

But? Not today.

Today I’m at level 0.

I’m ready. 

I. Can. Do. This.

In this with you…

Nikki